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I did and watched as it read ninety pounds. I could tell from the scowl on his face that he was unhappy about that. Thankfully though, he didn’t say anything.

  “Okay, Juliana, please take a seat back on the exam table.” He sat back down on his chair and typed my weight and height into the computerized chart. When he finished that, he took my blood pressure, my temperature, checked my eyes, ears, and throat. He even checked my reflexes. I was finally starting to calm down, realizing that he was keeping this exam one hundred percent professional.

  The exam was going so well, I should have known the other shoe was going to drop.

  “Alright, Juliana. Now, I need you to remove all of your clothes and change into this gown. Make sure that the opening is in the front. I’ll leave the room to let you change and I’ll knock before entering again. Okay?” he asked, handing me the light green cloth gown.

  I nodded and took the gown with shaky hands, watching as he left the room, closing the door behind him. I didn’t like this. Even though I would have the gown to wear, it was so thin, and he could come in here and do whatever he pleased. I closed my eyes and began to imagine.

  I sit on the exam table, wearing nothing but the transparent gown. The door opens, catching me by surprise as Robert walks in.

  “Sorry to startle you Juliana,” he says, closing the door and walking over to me.

  “It’s o-okay,” I say, looking up into those gorgeous eyes of his.

  He flashes that million dollar smile of his. “Please lie down and we can begin this exam.”

  I slowly lie down, nervous to be in this position, but there’s something about him that I just trust.

  “Comfortable?” he asks, brushing a strand of my hair off of my face and behind my ears.

  “Yes,” I squeak out.

  “Listen to me, Juliana. There is nothing to worry about. Now, I’m going to do a breast exam,” he says, slowly opening my gown.

  I begin to panic. This isn’t right. I’m about to tell him that I can’t do this, when he gently traces a path down the center of my breasts and then around each of them.

  I sigh and ease back slightly. That felt good.

  “Just relax. I’m not going to hurt you,” he says as he cups both of my swollen breasts. “Hmmm… these feel perfect to me. Now let’s test those nipples.” He runs his thumbs over them and they instantly bead up, sending a shock to my core. “Perfect. Now let’s move on to the rest of your body.”

  For the next several minutes, he checks my entire body. With each caress, more tremors are sent to my pussy, making me start to squirm.

  “Now, I just have to do a vaginal inspection. If you could please rest your feet on these stirrups?” he says, guiding them to their intended spots.

  I take a deep breath in as he pulls a light to the end of the exam table and clicks it on.

  “Good color, easily wet.” He starts to trace his finger on the outside of my labia, making my pussy quiver and drip. “Very sensitive. Now all that’s left to do is check your orgasm response.”

  “My what?” I begin to ask, sitting up, but falling back as his fingers touch my swollen and sensitive clit.

  I try to fight the orgasm, not wanting him to think poorly of me for being so turned on by a little exam from an attractive doctor.

  “Don’t fight it, Juliana. Come for me,” he demands, and my treacherous body listens, forcing an orgasm through me after months of never coming.

  I was pulled out of my fantasy when I heard knocking at the door. “Juliana? Are you okay in there?”

  It’s at that moment that I realized my right hand was drenched in my juices as my body continued to feel small aftershocks from the orgasm. How did I not notice my hand was in my pants?

  “Juliana?”

  “I… yes. One more minute!” I said, hurrying to finish undressing and to get into my gown. I quickly folded my clothes, making sure to hide my panties at the bottom of the pile because they’re drenched.

  I sat on the table and tried to catch my breath. This was so embarrassing! I hadn’t been able to orgasm for months, and suddenly my mind decides to take control. I was going to be humiliated if Robert came in and knew what I just unintentionally did.

  “Juliana, are you ready now?”

  “Yes,” I squeaked, hoping he wouldn’t be able to detect the scent on my panties since they were at the bottom of the pile.

  The door swung open and Robert stepped inside and then closed the door behind him. When he turned to face me again, he sniffed the air, and then gave me a confused look, closely followed by a smirk.

  Within seconds though, his face was blank as he said, “Alright. Now, I’m going to just do a quick exam of your body to make sure everything feels right, and then I’ll do a vaginal exam. Sound good?”

  I nodded, hoping he wouldn’t be able to tell what I’d just done.

  “Lie back, please.”

  I did, trying to relax. Having a fantasy about a hot doctor was one thing, but now that he was going to actually exam me, I began to panic. He walked closer to me until he was right at the side of the exam table.

  “Juliana, I’m going to untie your gown and do a breast and abdomen exam. Tell me if you’re uncomfortable at all.”

  I nodded and then he untied the sash of my gown. I closed my eyes as I felt his hands gently grab and squeeze my breasts. He did that for about five seconds on each one, and then he moved down and felt my abdomen. I opened my eyes to see that he was just staring at the wall. He wasn’t even looking at me. That made me relax slightly.

  Then he took a step back. “Okay, Juliana, you can close your gown now.”

  As I did that, he pulled out two stirrups from the bottom of the exam table.

  “Okay, Juliana, please place your feet in these,” he said, pulling a light towards the end of the table.

  Placing my feet in the stirrups, I watched as he grabbed some lube and spread it on a speculum. Just like that, the small amount of calm I was beginning to feel was forgotten and it was once again replaced by a large helping of fear.

  He sat down in his chair and rolled over to my open legs. “Okay, Juliana. All I want you to do is just relax. If you feel at all uncomfortable at any time, let me know right away.”

  “O-okay,” I said, lying back. I felt so open and exposed to him, and I wanted to laugh because this was just what I had fantasied about. But now that it was actually happening, I was ready to run screaming for the hills.

  I felt the first tear slide down my face as I closed my eyes, waiting for the exam to begin.

  I waited for what felt like an eternity when Robert said, “Baby girl, open your eyes.”

  I did and saw him staring down at me, a look of concern in his eyes. I didn’t know why, but the look on his face made me cry harder.

  “It’s okay, Juliana. You’re okay,” he said, wiping the tears from my face with a tissue. “Don’t you remember, I told you to tell me if you were uncomfortable.”

  I nodded my head.

  “Well, you should have told me and we could have taken a break, or I could have talked you through what’s going to happen.”

  “S-sorry,” I said, beginning to cry a little harder. I couldn’t believe how much of a fool I must look like.

  “There is absolutely no need for you to be sorry. Here, why don’t you have a juice box and hold this teddy bear I got for you,” he said, first handing me an apple juice box that already had the straw in it and then handing me a teddy bear.

  I took both and hugged the teddy bear close, then started to drink. I don’t know if it was the sugary taste of the juice or the soft bear, but I started to feel better. I stopped crying, then momentarily closed my eyes and tried to take some deep breaths to calm down.

  “There you go, sweetie. Try keeping your eyes closed, and I’ll tell you a short story while I continue your exam.”

  I nodded, not opening my eyes as I pulled the teddy bear closer to me.

  “Once upon a time, there was a princess. This princess was bea
utiful, with black curly hair and rich chocolate-brown eyes. She had such an adventurous spirit. She liked to ride her horse, Marcus, all over the land that her parents owned. She loved the feel of the wind in her hair and the freedom, as though nothing could control her. But one day, she fell in love with a knight, who was actually an ogre in disguise.”

  As Robert was telling me this story, I pictured the princess in my head. I imagined that she wore a dress just like Belle from Beauty and the Beast. As I was picturing the dress, Robert gently pulled my legs apart.

  “This ogre ended up hurting the princess a great deal, and the ogre made the princess lose her courage. Since the princess lost her courage, she didn’t ride her horse anymore because she was too afraid. That made both the princess and Marcus very sad.”

  I felt horrible for the princess. I could understand why she was afraid, but she should get over her fear. She couldn’t let the mean ogre get away with making her scared for the rest of her life. I winced, feeling an uncomfortable feeling in my pussy, but ignored it as Robert continued his story.

  “Just as the princess gave up all hope that she would ever ride again, she met a prince. This prince saw how afraid she was, yet behind those big brown eyes of hers, he could see that she had an adventurous spirit. So, ever so carefully, he started to help her.”

  I imagined what the prince would look like. For some reason, the picture of Robert in the outfit that the Beast wore when he dressed up in Beauty and the Beast, popped into my mind. I sighed as the uncomfortable feeling left my pussy.

  “The prince praised the princess when she succeeded in doing something and he gave her a little spank on her bottom when she didn’t. Before the princess could believe it, her courage was back and she was riding Marcus once again. The end.”

  I opened my eyes and realized that Robert was all done with the story and my exam.

  “You can sit up now, Juliana. I just have a few questions that I have to ask you for my files, but otherwise, we’re done.”

  “But what about the princess?” I asked sitting up, not letting go of my teddy bear or my finished juice box. Robert hadn’t finish the story and I wanted him to.

  “What about her? She got over her fear. That was the point of the story,” he said, pushing the stirrups back into the table and putting the light away.

  “Did the princess and prince ever get married?” I asked, adjusting the gown so it covered all of me.

  “Oh. Yes, they did and they ended up having several children together and living happily ever after in their castle.”

  “Now it’s the end,” I said happily, handing my empty juice box to him when he held his hand out for it.

  “Would you like another juice box? I have more apple juice or grape, if you’d prefer.”

  “Grape, please.”

  He handed me another juice box and I began drinking it as he sat down in front of the computer again. Then he asked me a bunch of standard doctor questions, and when he finished, he told me he needed to take a few vials of my blood to run some tests.

  “I don’t like shots,” I said matter-of-factly as he wrapped the tourniquet around my arm. He cleaned a spot on my arm and then got a needle and a vial ready.

  I squeezed my teddy bear closer to me to try and not make me worry so much.

  “Don’t worry, Juliana. It’s only going to hurt a tiny bit, I promise. Close your eyes and give your teddy a big hug.”

  I did as he told me and had to fight back a whimper when I felt the pinch in my right arm.

  “All done, Juliana,” he said, and I opened my eyes to see that he had put a Hello Kitty band aid where he’d taken my blood.

  “Thanks,” I said, pulling my teddy bear closer to me.

  When he finished, he left the room and closed the door so I could get dressed again. He told me when I finished to open the door and that he would be waiting for me outside.

  I got off the exam table, reached for my clothes, and looked at my underwear. Deciding I couldn’t not wear them, I slipped them back on and put the rest of my clothes on too. When I finished, I opened the door to see him standing there, just like he promised.

  “I need a urine sample from you,” he said, handing me the plastic cup.

  “Okay.” This was another part about the doctor’s office I was not a fan of.

  “The bathroom is two doors down to the left. When you’re finished, just put the cup behind the small door in the wall. I’ll be able to do an analysis on it quickly and have the results in about twenty minutes. Would you like to wait in my office after you’re done, or go back out by Mark?”

  “I’ll wait in your office.”

  “Alright. My office is right across from the bathroom. Would you like me to tell Mark to wait in there with you?”

  “Yes, please.” I was about to leave when I remembered I was still holding my teddy bear. I can’t bring my teddy bear to the bathroom with me. “What should I do with the teddy bear?”

  “I’ll take him and he’ll be waiting for you in my office,” he said, grabbing my bear and giving me a wink before he turned and walked down towards his office.

  Chapter Four

  After Juliana walked to the bathroom, I quickly ran into my office and placed her teddy bear on one of the seats across from my desk. Then I walked out into the waiting room to talk to Mark.

  “Hey. How’d it go?” he asked, standing up and putting his cell phone in his pocket.

  “Overall, the experience went fairly well. She got scared a few times, but we worked our way through it.”

  “How bad is she? I know that she lost weight, but that won’t have permanent effects on her body, will it?”

  The concern in Mark’s voice touched me. On the outside, he acted like the typical tough cop, but on the inside, Mark was the biggest softie. He could never stand to see someone that he cared about hurt.

  “I’m not sure yet. I’ll have to run tests on her blood. But, I think that it’s clear to see that the stress from her last relationship is taking a huge toll on her. She is severely underweight, she has a low grade fever, and she looks exhausted. I’m guessing that she’s also is anemic and has multiple vitamin deficiencies.”

  “We can fix all that right?” he asked, rubbing both of his hands through his hair.

  “Yes. With a healthy diet, getting plenty of sleep, and some exercise, she should be back to a healthy weight range in about three to four months. I would also highly recommend that she see a therapist or at least talk to someone who will help her cope with the situation she was in.” As I said that last sentence, a part of me strongly wished that Juliana would choose me to be that person to talk to, to help her get through all of this. I knew that I could help.

  “Thank gosh,” Mark said, sitting back down in the chair and putting his head in his hands.

  I sat down next to him and put my hand on his shoulder for a moment. I felt bad for Mark. He was the one who had found Juliana and who had taken care of her these past several weeks. It had to be very hard for him to see her like this. “Yes. She’s in for a long road, but something tells me that she will be able to do it. Listen, I just ran out here quickly because she wants you in my office with her when I tell her about her test results. I have to run and do them now,” I said, standing up.

  “Okay. Thanks, man, for doing this. I really appreciate it.”

  “No problem. I’m glad to help her,” I said as I turned and began walking towards my lab.

  As I was walking, I couldn’t help but remember how much fear was in Juliana’s eyes when I was examining her. The entire time I tried to be completely professional and not scare her off. But the entire time, all I wanted to do was bundle her up and take her home where I could give her the attention she needed. Hopefully, someday I would have the right to do that for her.

  * * *

  I walked into Robert’s office to see Mark sitting in one of the chairs across from Robert’s desk, playing with his cell phone.

  “Hi, Mark.”

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p; “Hey. How did the appointment go?” he asked, closing the game and putting his phone in his pocket.

  “Pretty good.” I took the seat with the teddy bear on it, placing the bear in my lap and giving it a slight squeeze when I knew Mark wasn’t looking.

  “You okay, Juliana? The appointment wasn’t too much for you?”

  “I’m okay,” I said, honestly. When we first got here, I was terrified of Robert. But, after the way he’d treated me, I was really starting to like him. I knew in my gut he wasn’t a bad guy.

  Mark and I talked for several minutes until Robert came in.

  “Thank you for waiting,” he said, carrying what I assumed were my test results and sitting down in his desk chair across from us.

  “So, how does everything look?” Mark asked.

  Robert settled his gaze on me and I knew the information was not going to be good. “I’m not going to lie. I’m very concerned. Juliana, you’re severely underweight, you have a low grade fever, probably because your immune system is weak. You look exhausted. Your blood work is showing that you’re anemic, meaning that you don’t have enough iron in your blood. You also have a vitamin B-12 deficiency. Additionally, due to your problems going to the bathroom, that’s causing problems with your digestive system.”

  I just sat there silently. I knew that my not eating would cause some problems, but I wasn’t expecting this many. I gave my new teddy bear another small hug. I didn’t know how I could fix all of this.

  “So, what should I do?” I finally asked, looking down at my lap. I didn’t want to have to face Mark or Robert.

  “I can put you on a special diet. Hopefully doing that will help you gain weight and get you healthy again. I also think it would be a smart idea if you were to go and see a therapist to talk about what happened to you. If you want, I know a therapist who specializes with people who participate in the age play lifestyle.”

  “No!” I said, looking up from my hands. I was not going to go and see someone who played in this lifestyle. This stupid lifestyle got me in this situation. I was not going to turn to it to get me out of it.